I WANT... DEPLOYMENT DREAM

One week down already I can't believe it. Its going by pretty fast for e I haven't cried since the day he left. Its not that I don't have feelings I just know this is temporary not permanent. I have already got emails from him.My eyes grew big and my smile grew wider as I read what my memory wrote to me! He told me he couldn't wait to get back and get married he can't wait to be together start our family and just to see my autumns .It truly does help a lot to keep your self busy and my nights aren't bad there good. I miss you yes do I ever but the brokenness inside me has started healing! I know your okay but I know you miss me I know we love each other and we are strong I am stressed but willing to handle what ever gets thrown on this table. I am starting to pack the house up I can't wait to be closer to you and them when yo get home we will actually be living together in the same house! Wohooo!!! I am on a new diet trying to get fit I am p.ting myself everyday its a goal of mine to make me feel better about myself.I started a few projects that are for you, so you can have them when you come home. I am already thinking of home coming the posters the things we are going to do the things I want to do with you! But the one that stuck out the most to me was laying in bed looking at you sleeping or not. That thought keeps me going Oh to smell you or to feel you to kiss you or to hug you I can't wait! I am going to grandma Linda and to mom for more home made cooking lessons so I can cook yummy in your tummy food when you get home. I have another relay coming up on June 5th another 24hour one I can't wait! I miss you so much come home to me soon my love I love you bear. I was relaxing in the bath this morning and thinking of our almost house how it will be! I want a southern country style house I want flowers everywhere I want a garden of vegetable I want my house to smell look autumn or apple pie and cinnamon with a hint of pumpkin. I want candles everywhere and I mean everywhere I want french doors I want a wrap around porch and a balcony.I want white flowie lace white curtains and a big bath tub I want fire places! And the best thing when it rains I just want to lay in bed with you all day. I want to make you break fast and watch you read your paper. I want to hear you laugh in the next room I want to know when I go to bed you are the man I will be laying my head next to. And like you told me I want to be in those rocking chairs with you old and gray! Even though I don't want to turn old and gray I will because you want to!