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So the last few days have been good!Grandma and I shopped the whole day and man was it tiring. We went to like 20 different stores looking for a woody ballon anything toy story anything hat had woody on it my sister is obsessed with him. Well we had n luck finding a ballon but oh boy i feasted my eyes on a life size cut out of woody and thought my goodness shes gonna crap herself! Grandma was laughing out of control she couldn't believe I was going to by that damn thing! But I did! Grandma found a cowboy vest for her and lot's more decorations for my crazy sister to have! After finding those wonderful treasures we headed to bed bah and beyond (one of my favorite stores}our mission was to find the big top cupcake mold!We scurried through the isles and found the sucker! We were so excited to bake a huge cupcake for my sisters cake so we again scurried home to bake it! I posted pictures it turned out like an egg grandma wanted to cover the whole thing but remember it was our first time we know for next time just to cover the top! So back to my sister!.My sister turned 20! Grandma mom and myself went down to her work (this was he pre b-day party}and brought her cupcakes ballons glow in the dark necklaces and bracelets a whole bunch of stuff!She was so excited to introduce us to everyone. She looked so pretty and she was so happy I love to see my sister like that It makes my day go by better when I no my family's doing wonderful!That next day was when the real birthday was I was excited but so depressed why you ask because it was my Marines birthday to. I was so sad we all couldn't celebrate or sing to him. Hes out training rite now which totally sucks I wish i could of gaven him cake lol or his present but its the military. I hope he had a good day I haven't talked to him since last Thursday! Happy Birthday big man will have A party when you come home! My family supported me through the day they all got him gifts and sent him text messages still knowing he wont get them for about another week! So my family sister and all her friends met down at down town Disney we had a blast we ate at the Rain Forest Cafe!So yummy! After we ate we gave her her presents and her cake! When everyone was done we all went walking around we all had a blast it was so much fun and much needed! I' am now home in my bed so tired thinking of my Mr.Marine!

Dear Gary Ray,

Dear Gary Ray,
I missed you today! I wonder what your doing? Well I had to get away today so I packed my stuff and fled off to grandma's. I don't no something about grandma's house make everything better I don't no if it's the scent that fill's her house, her cooking, or knowing she's here for me through bad or good? Well my day consist of laundry { I found your missing pair of green's (cammis) ), cooking, gardening, some work, and cleaning! Fun fun right? NOT! Well i' am still planning the wedding it get's me so excited to no this is actually happening! I was sitting here laughing at myself while planning why you ask, because I can't believe a simple song or the scent on your shirt or the memorance of your smile can make me cry! I love you so much and can't wait to see you bear I can't wait to kiss you and see your big blue eyes! These last few week's have been pretty sleepless night's I no it's because deployment's just a few week's away. BUT we will and we can do this with flying colors! It wont be easy but it will be worth it yes, there will be times were we both just want to give up and just cry scream throw something or just ask what the hell am I doing? It's okay to feel like that every one does but just remember you have me walking every step of the way with you you have me to count on you have me to lean on! Sweetheart i' ll wait for you like lover's do! just think when the 210 days (7months) are done were just days away from our wedding starting a family and just being together! You told me in a text one time I love you my autumn (autumn meaning my eyes remind him of it) i can' wait to come home and see you walk down that isle in that pure whit dress! It may not mean much to my readers but it means a lot to me I hold on to that text and look at it every time he leaves. I have millions of other text's I can post I have saved so many but I don't want to bore all of you! Well I think i' am gonna try to sleep. When I wake up that just means were one day closer to being together!

YOUR FOREVER PROUD FOREVER FAITHFUL BRIDE TO BE ALYSSA!

p.s. I love you baby keep your head up march on and soldier on!

WE GOT HIS ORDER'S FOR DEPLOYMENT..

Deployment order's are in and set. But first i'll tell you how it all went. As he got to the house I woke up to him trying to crawl in bed gently thinking he wouldn't wake me up well he did, so i rolled over and gave him a big smooch! Boy did I miss him. We got to talking about his day at work I noticed his eyes got heavier I asked him "are you tired bear?" he looked at me and said no mama i'am fine. I hate when he tell's me no he's not when I no he's dieing to take a nap but if i suggest a nap he will say no and in the back of my mind i'am thinking and he's probally thinking i'am/he's trained for no sleep i/he can do this even though I no he's rained my heart still breaks to see him like that. well as the conversation went on he asked if i would help him find a band for his flak jacket and I replied with a yes hunny! So as I put my shoe's on and hurried out side in the freezing cold we got to the truck and started looking for the band that disappeared. As we were searching through the truck my eyes met a stack of paper's as I was going to grab them hubby jumped up and said "oh yeah we got our set orders for deployment!". As i looked through them it said he will be gone for 210 days {7 month's}as i felt a sigh of relief knowing he wont be gone for a year my heart still broke. But i looked at him and smiled and told him "we can do this we will do this it will go by fast and easy. i will love you the same i'll be rite here waiting for you with an American Flag flying, a yellow ribbon pinned to me and wrapped around the tree outside sweetheart i'll wait for you!" As i said that i can see a little less stress was takin off of hi shoulder's. the rest of the day went good unti'll went to go to sleep here come the water work's i said to myself i just went through night saying to myself "it will be ok he will be fine he will come home to me. and we can have that wedding we wanted and start the family we want to have" oh god i cant wait for this deployment to start and be over! I LOVE YOU BABY YOUR STRONG AND COMMIN HOMEMISS YOU! ALWAYS PROUD FOREVER FAITHFUL YOUR MARINE WIFE ALYSSA!

4 week's till deployment

4 WEEK'S TILL DEPLOYMENT. WHAT AM I TO DO? SIT AND WAIT CRY AND WORRY HURT AND BE IN PAIN... YES I WILL BE I NO I WILL BE. I DON'T WANT TO BE BUT I CANT HELP IT. I LOVE YOU I WANT YOU HERE BUT THIS DEPLOYMENT MEANS WERE JUST THAT MUCH CLOSER TO STARTING OUR LIVES TOGETHER. I WILL BE STRONG BUT STILL SAD I WILL BE TOUGH BUT ANGRY I WILL HURT IN THE INSIDE BUT LOVING ALYSSA ON THE OUTSIDE. I LOVE YOU AND WISH FOR THIS DEPLOYMENT TO GO BYE FAST EASY AND SMOOTH. AS I' AM LOOKING AT THE FURNITURE WE GOT ALONG WITH SOME PICTURES WITH SAYING ON THEM REALLY LIFT MY SPIRITS "GREAT HOPE COMES FROM GREAT FAITH IN GOD" "DANCE, LOVE, SING, LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE" AND LAST "THANK GOD FOR WHAT YOU HAVE AND THANK GOD FOR WHAT YOU NEED". I LAY HERE WITH YOUR DOG TAG'S AROUND MY NECK IN SOME WAY I FEEL YOUR HERE WITH ME AND SAME WHEN I SLEEP WITH YOUR JACKET AND IT HAS YOUR SCENT ON IT IT GIVE'S ME A FEELING YOUR COMMING HOME TO ME!I MISS YOU I LOVE YOU YOUR MY EVERYTHING MY MAN MY MARINE! I WAS READING ONE DAY AND FOUND THIS PRAYER.
DEAR LORD,
GIVE ME GREATNESS OF HEART TO SEE, THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DUTY AND HIS LOVE FOR ME.
GIVE ME THE UNDERSTANDING SO I MAY NO, WHEN DUTY CALLS HE MUST GO.
GIVE ME A TASK TO DO EACH DAY, TO FILL THE TIME WHEN HE IS AWAY.
AND, LORD, WHEN HE MUST FLY SO HIGH, WATCH OVER HIM NIGH.
AND, LORD, WHEN HE GOES OUT TO SEA, BRING HIM SAFELY HIM TO ME.
AND, LORD, WHEN DUTY IS IN THE FIELD, PLEASE PROTECT HIM AND BE HIS SHIELD.
AND, LORD, WHEN HE IS IN FOREIGN LAND, KEEP HIM SAFE IN YOUR LOVING HAND.
AND, LORD, WHEN DEPLOYMENT IS LONG, PLEASE STAY WITH ME AND KEEP ME STRONG!

ANOTHER THING I FOUND WAS THIS PARAGRAPH OF GREAT WORDS,
A MARINE WIFE IS FULL OF GLORY. SHE SEES IN HIM IS FULL LIFE STORY. SHE'S A PATIENT WOMAN OF GREAT UNDERSTANDING. SHE STATES HER OPINIONS AND IS RARELY DEMANDING. IN MOMENTS OF SADNESS OR UNEXPECTED SORROW SHELL LIVEN THE DAY FOR A BETTER TOMORROW. SHE GIVES WARMTH WHEN LIFE IS COLD FOR HE HOLDS THE KEY TO HER HEART OF GOLD. HER ULTIMATE TEST OF BEING A MARINE CORPS WIFE IS BEARING THE ABSTINENCE OF A MAN IN HER LIFE. "MY DUTY COMES FIRST", SHE REMEMBERS HIM SAYING, "I MAY GO ABROAD, BUT FOR YOU ILL BE PRAYING". HER REWARD WILL COME, VERY SOON ONE DAY. WEN HER MARINE COMES HOME FOR A LENGTHY STAY. FOR THIS IS THEIR CASTLE, SHE IS THE QUEEN. A VERY PROUD WIFE OF A WIFE OF A UNITED STATES MARINE!

I LOVE YOU GARY RAY WILSON I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY AND LOVE YOU LIKE HELL AND SWEETHEART ILL WAIT FOR YOU LIKE LOVERS DO!I LOVE MY CORPORAL! I LOVE MY LIFE AND I CANT WAIT TO GET MARRIED SO WE CAN START "OUR LIFE".

last few weeks i have with

these last few weeks have been hell. i havent seen you or barley talked to you in over two weeks. after that you come for a day home pack up and leave for another 3 weeks. then you come home and deployments here. i cant wait for it to be over and it hasnt even started yet. i miss you so much i cant wait for this emptyness to go away i cant wait for these painful tears to go away.i dont care how long your gone as long as you come. and just like you say to me hope for 6 pray for 8! [meaning he can be deployed anywhere from 6 to 8 months unless something happens he will be gone for a whole year]. i cant wait for you to come home so we can get married i love you baby this cant come and end fast enough. its going to hurt like hell and iam ready. but iam not ready to let you go! i never will be! i love you baby more than all the words in all the books in all the world. and like you tell me youll love me till the worlds stop spinning. oh to hear you say that!

frustrated

i' am frustrated your not here
i' am frustrated i want to cry
i' am frustrated i cant talk to you
i' am frustrated i cant see you
i' am frustrated you have to go
i' am frustrated i want to scream
i' am frustrated that i love you but i cant tell you every day
i though going in to this becoming a marine wife would be easy and great loving you
but i was wrong it's hard and not easy i love you so much and it's true thinking about it
the heart grows fonder with distance. i just want to wrap you in my arms and never let you go
i want to have you laying next to me where you should be i want to wake up to you with no wonders
in my mind thinking is he going to get that call is he going to have to leave
i dont want to have to go weeks or months not seeing you or talking to you
i love my life i love our life i cant wait to get it started with you but at the same time
i dont want to sound selfish because what your doing is something greater than alot of people will
never no feel or expirence. your fighting for our country for my freedom i dont no how i will ever thank you enough. your so brave and truthful your a man of your word hunny your one of the few good men
left out there.

forever proud forever faithful
alyssa