ME whats going on with me.!

So as you have all read my love life has been a mess recently. Bear and I broke up then I I was dating Cody, well Cody and I ended up not working out our differences were getting in the way and my heart. Even though bear and I had our falling outs and faults I missed him I loved him I wanted him deep down. I gave Cody a chance hoping I would get over bear well I was wrong very wrong it made me crave him want him more.I know from previous posts your thinking how stupid of me but this is my life and who I love. Cody and I called it quits around Halloween then once after Thanks giving then worked on it up until the begining of December. Bear contacted me while he was on leave in IN and said he missed me hes sorry he needs me he loves me. I couldnt help but feel overwhelmed that maybe my bear was coming back to me?! Excited we text and talked. We got together and went out we had an amazing time from the first second i saw him and we hugged all these emotions and feelings came rushing back. but I still have the thought of our past in my head. We talked and we think getting him checked out is best. Bipolar is a canidate along with PTSD I am thinking. Bipolar disorders run in his family. Now Im not getting to personal with this as he asked me not to. We are working things out and they are going so good Im smiling Im feeling goos were laughing and appreciating eachother finally the way it should of been from when he got back from deployment! Im going to share photos of bear and I from our engagment shoot we did! I will also share more pictures from the 2 photo shoots I had. There are so many photos I will do this in several posts! And coming soon I have a giveaway coming up so keep your eyes wide and ears open my loves!