update!

Hi my loves long time no talk. I know I kinda left you with a what the hell last post. I will get in to detail with that later.... in other postsss.... So anyways how are ya'll doing I missed you guys! lets just say I am freaking jumping out of my skin Bear will be home in less than a week! Its going to be homecoming galore wohoo!!!! I can't wait deployment is finally coming to an end and he can see me my new body I can't wait for homecoming night oh buy yummy yummy yummy! But most of all I can't wait to just lay next to him and smell him. I will have lots of pictures and a video to post for you all when time comes I promise! Now next my weight loss I lost a grand total of 30 pounds! BOOYAH!!! WOHOOO I FEEL AMAZING AND SEXY AND CONFIDENT! I can't wait for bear to lay his eyes on my lusciousness! Lets see what else oh yeah and my new car my cute little white car I am in love wit and he gets to see the new house! I have been cleaning like crazy lots of laundry setting up getting ready going on in the next few day its going to be insane! But baby I am ready bring it! Over this past week I was contacted by a photographer and she asked if I would do photos for her so of course I said hell yeah! The photos came out amazing I love love love them we set up a shoot for bear and I and boy oh boy am I excited for that! I will post some pictures of the shoot and the rest after Christmas because those are everyones Christmas presents lol! SO Its been amazing this past month just knowing he is on his way home to me and I get to spend Christmas with him I couldn't have asked for a better present thanks SANTA!!!! Bear and I are leaving at 1AM in the morning to fly to INDIANA I am meeting his family for the first time and I am ecstatic I love them this deployment has brought all of closer! I have a whole bunch of gifts I am taking plus a huge ass suitcase full of my crap... Then on the 2nd we leave Indiana but were not flying were driving his truck back... Can you say Road trip lol! I can't wait to see the memories we make!.... well I better get to bed I have a busy bust week ahead of me love you all so much I am glad to be back!

Love MAMA Wilson xoxo

My whole world fell apart

A little about me

Laying in bed I was thinking about my blog and come to realize I never really did an "about me" So here we go....

I was born and raised in the city but at hart I am a country girl

I think I am decent looking and I know I have good cooking

I pour a little something on the rocks occasionally.

I love hot bubble bath that I can sink in

I leave a trail when I undress. I can eat a whole bag of Cheeto puffs in one sitting if

I have a box of chocolates I take one bite and the ones I like I eat all of it and the ones I dont I put back.

I paint my toes not my nails because I bite them bear is always on my mind 24/7

I like country and some classical music or soundtracks to

Black Hawk down

Brothers

Tears of the sun and so on...

8 is my favorite number I laugh when I shouldnt at times I am loud and like to dance

I call my mama when all else fails I listen to my music quitely at times but when I have an off day

its up when everything feels right I am great

I wish I had a dad that loved me I wished more people cared about me nd not listened to the lies

my "father" has told about not jut me but my future husband

I dont fight but if I have to I will October through December are my favorite months

I want 6 kids I want a farm and an old victorian practical magic house

Ive never been in snow but I would love to be experience it one day

I can sleep all day if I had the chance I love the rain I love doing arts and crafts

I am very motivated when it comes to our men and women in uniform. My mom and my grandma are my bestfriends I tend to get angry at them when everything goes wrong but amazingly they know

I dont mean it and still love me unconditionally.

I am young but willing I miss my man and would do anything in this world to have

him home with me to get just one kiss or one hug. I miss him I miss all of him

I miss watching his hands work I miss everything about that man.

my favorite color is pink I worry about others more than I need to I carry all my stress

and hold it in. I get mad for no reason sometimes it takes me awhile to warm up in the morning

I am easily entertained and again easy to make laugh I ama curious person to life and how

things work I love to be by myself at times

I cry at songs I cry at a voicemail he sent me a year ago

I sleep with his cammis every night I am trying to persuade the bear in to getting me a dog

I am a very firm believer in not cheating I think its one of the worst things you can do

I trust easily I have been hurt and cheated one to many times

I am a giving person who doesn't expect anything back I can be your best friend or I can be

a real bitch so chose wisely I love to dream about my future and what its going to be like

when I am sick I am sick I have a very high tolerance to pain and people

I love love love kids and animals. I want to go in to the Military but right now I have a fiance deployed a mom who is a widow and a family I love they come before me.This is it for now about me tune in for part 2 after my Halloween

fun!!!!

Mama Wilson xoxo

ME!

the end is nearing

I have been away I know I am sorry I have had some problems with my A** hole of a "DAD" that I had to take care of lets just say lots of crying and one big head ache.... Any who besides that I have been doing some wedding planning which is crazy but wonderful! We are all moved in to the new house mhmmm I love it wohoo can't wait for bear to see it! I went to a Carrie Underwood Randy Travis and Billy Currington concert and man oh man was it a blast!... Bear emailed me and said he has a HUGE surprise for me when we get to Indiana (when he goes on leave) I am thinking a wedding.. =/ I am nervous yikeessss... My god daughter should be here any time now can't wait to meet her... And dun dun dun I got an email from the MEU FRO and I have a release and debriefing reunion to go to on Nov 3!!! You know what that means the end is nearing wohooooooo, oh my gosh I am so happy I can't wait to see his big blue eyes and his cute white ass his Forest Gump accent ughh boy oh boy and finally I have to think about breakin the razors out and start shaving! Deployment is almost gone I can almost wipe the sweat off my forehead... Just sent out one of the last packages to him and now going to bust the paint and paper out home coming ughh I am so excited home coming home coming home coming its seems like forever since I have seen his sweet face boy do I miss that man. Well this is it for tonight tune in for my Halloween fun tips and treats!!! Love you my beautys good night!

update,pictures,and fun!

So update on the dom (doughnut of misery)we have 60.6% done

and 39.7% to go! Can you believe it honestly boy thinking back on this

I thought we were never going to come to this so quickly! In less than 2 and a half months

I ll have my bear home! 

Next I got a picture of me back from the fair my cousin took of me. 

I sent it to bear his jaw dropped and eyes popped outta his head!

What is your opinion on this?

Next my aunts "21st bday" (45) I went and met the whole

damn fam at yummy P.F.Changs and man was it fabulous!!!! My cousin Josh and I were

fighting over the cake and he ended up winning! It was a blast lots of laughs!

Now remember my post about my big ol' mug I made well I got the finishing product of it! 

I love it the only thing is that I wish the colors would of came out my lighter and softer!

PLEASE EXCUSE THIS PICTURE I HAVE NO MAKE UP ON AND LOOK 

LIKE CRAP!!!!!!!!

My cousin surprised me with a t-shirt saying Marine Wife on it!

I loved it so much I decided to wear it to Disneyland! Here are some pictures of us

on some rides! (Again excuse the strangers arm next to me!)

Sorry they are not the best pictures but they will do for now!

Hope you had fun with my adventures...

Love Mama Wilson!

yikes!

So I came across this video and I freakin balled my eyes out and made me completely sick to my stomach. As the video ended I couldn't believe these families feelings meaning one morning they were fine then say an hour later they get the "knock on the door." This video reminds me of my mom and a certain someone I know. How can both of these people I mentioned grasp the thought of this happening just how. Well I talked to my mother about this and her experience when this happened to her and boy let me tell you I was not ready! Well here is the video
http://www.youtube.com/user/costofwar

Now here is a much more happier video (one of my favorites!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uSMlIM9zLio

Love you Mama Wilson xoxo!

So this is another all over the place post!

Well first off lets start off with some wonderful news 

can you guess? We have maybe a little less than 2 and a half months

till the big man is home! AHHHHHHHHHHHH thank my lucky

stars! Another thing he is out of Pakistan and making memories elsewhere don't 

no where yet but I am sure somewhere bitchin! I can't wait to

see all the nick nacks he got for me wohoooo!

I was laying in bed last night thinking about a lot last night!

Especially how I promised bear that if he tried avocado (he has had it before but grossed out)

I would try venison! (deer) I totally forgot about that until last night.

I jumped up in bed as my face started frowning and I almost gaged thinking

about what the hell I promised him. I right after got on my email and sent him one stating 

I feel horrible that I promised to eat deer! I don't want to eat Bambi no no no!!!!!!NO! He then 

came back with a joke saying then if you don't want to eat deer

we will just indulge in some BEAR... I got chills and said loudly *NOT COOL*

SO we will see what happens with that Ill be sure to take a picture of my face of what ever it

is I eat. Next I don't remember if I ever posted pictures of my ring? Well I will do so in this post!

excuse the pictures there not that great I took while I was cleaning out the bath and I thought 

why the hell not the lighting in the bathroom was pretty! Next I was going through some pictures and

found some of me and bear Awhh I had the biggest grin on my face when I saw him!

Some will be posted as well. Friday night we had a girls night went to the county fair and I have

to say I indulged in quit a few yummy salted lime iced double shot others triple shot of tequila margaritas!

Boy I had fun it was nice to have a girls night we talked laughed danced sang watched some 

bull riding and shows the food was yummy in my tummy and reminisced about bear and

the other big bad men!

Saturday went out with my sister and cousins with some more friends hooka bar we went

it was a good time all the belly dancers the Mediterranean food and feel of the place

the music was a change I enjoyed it! I swear I got so in to it I felt like I was in Pakistan

with Bear I almost got up and started looking for him. I remember sitting at the table and everything

went to the back of my mind everything went still I just saw bears face I sat and just was out of it

I saw my man I felt him everything felt like slow motion it was crazy. But so good to see my man for that little time I had. Well that's it till my next post!

Mama Wilson xoxo

Hello my beauties!

Hello there how are ya! I have had the WORST week since this DEPLOYMENT started. Uhhhggg I am not going to get into it because I chose not to "re-live the events." Although I did get to talk to bear for an hour and a half then another 15minutes (this was yesterday) This morning he woke me up at 7 for a 15 minute phone call then as I was getting my "sexy back on" at the gym in the middle of doing the elliptical he called and told me he loved me and missed me and can't wait to come home. And of course I started crying in the middle of the gym while my legs were still going! We talked for about 28 minutes then we got cut off so hopefully he will call back so I can hear his sexy country accent! I LOVE YOU FOREST!  Now update with the DOM we are about we have 46.2% left! I miss my man so much ughhh I can't wait to see his cute country ass! More than half way done and about 3 months left. Tomorrow I go and pick up my HUGE mug I can't wait to see the outcome of it. Update about the house we have everything painted the electrical is done hard wood floors come in soon so all in all that is coming together wonderfully the wedding is getting done little by little but surely I will have pictures up in another post. My diet is going well I am in a whole new set of numbers good for me I celebrated a little with some yummy chocolate cheese cake and can you say it knocked my socks off! This is somewhat of a random post so I am jumping all over the place with things to write excuse me for doing so. OH AND A HUGE THANK YOU THANK YOU TO SOUTHERN HOSPITALITY FOR HAVING ME OVER LOVE LOVE LOVE THAT PRETTY MAMACITA! And I can't forget to say HEYYYYY to my new readers! Another thing I am thinking about changing my hair color to blond again not sure yet if I want to or not?? Well that's all I have going on in my crazy head right now.! Since I have new readers please feel free to ask questions add comments anything please don't hesitate!

Love you my girls

Mama Wilson xoxo!

p.s.

Please have a moment of silence for those who lost their lives in 9/11

R.I.P. you will never be forgotten just goes to show how Strong America came back 

      to fight those who caused us chaos. And for that I would like to say

                                      " I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, 

                                           and to the republic for which it stands, one nation under 

                                                 God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all."

bear

I miss you more than usual tonight

I don't know why I just do.

I don't like this feeling at all maybe its because

I know this deployment is coming to anend

in just a matter of a few months?

maybe because I haven't seen you smile and dimples

or maybe I because I haven't physically felt you in so long?

Through this deployment I have listened to a few songs and one of them 

caught my attention. Here is the verse.

"Life's a dance you learn as you go sometimes you lead sometimes you follow don't worry

about what you don't know life's a dance you learn as you go."

 It's so true take a minute to reflect on this and see what comes to mind

ask others what they think?

What it means to me is life is one big learning experience when your younger

your parents teach you the best you can, but as you get older you go into this world

with just the knowledge you have been taught and nothing more. As you grow you will be knocked 

down but you pick your self up and go back for more. As time goes by your knowledge will grow

you may have to crawl even after you walk.

Take chances in life be daring at times try new things.

You have to give if you want to receive. Just like there is a time and a place and a time

to talk and a time to listen. You never know what life has instore for you

so live it the way you want. Be happy in life don't be so serious all the time laugh

at times when others don't be that person who laughs out loud. Be that person when others 

are wearing all black you wear white. Be the opposite stand up for yourself and your beliefs.

Be unique and be an individual but most of all believe in yourself.

Mama Wilson xoxo

 

Fun and happy!

My cup I drew lines on it

the inside!

All they have to do is glaze it now!

Kinsey painting her master piece!

I was intimidated when I saw all of these! 

So first off Saturday my grandmother and I cruised over to my wittle cousins house and went to Mud Shack (its just like color me mine if you know what that is?) Well I will explain if you don't know what Mud Shack or Color me mine is... They are a place where pottery is made its anywhere from vases mugs plates pumpkins dogs frogs anything you can think of that can be made out of Pottery! You pick out the piece you want grab the paint colors you want to use and start making your master piece! After your are done playing Picasso you give your art to the helpers that work there and then they glaze it with a shiny glaze like coat (but it takes about 4-5 days to glaze they have to do several coats) they will give you a day to pick it up! We pick our magnificent art work up on Tuesday and boy oh boy am I excited! Grandma made a pumpkin cousin Kinsey made a turtle with 3 baby turtles and two dog bones and my myself and I made a huge mug!!!! I love it I can't wait to drink out of it and show bear what I made! I told bear about it he said he want's to go and give it a shot! I'm very excited he mentioned so because I was worried I would of had to drag him to the place to make his own master piece! ( I am hoping he will make a big mug like mine so I can display them in our one day house!) Now some exciting news about bear I can say I am less than 100 days until he is back home with me!!!! I am so excited I am bouncing off the walls! Okay well my loves I am off to bed to watch some of my new shows I have training tomorrow and starting my new diet (Atkins diet) can't wait love you my beauties!

(here are links to color me mine and mud shack)

http://www.colormemine.com/http:/
/www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=1&ved=0CBcQFjAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.mudshack.com%2F&rct=j&q=mud%20shack&ei=lIGETPWuJobmsQOayez2Bw&usg=AFQjCNEmY6GPymYih3O6i7eImEQL7o2pHw&cad=rja

Love
Mama Wilson Xoxo

A year ago today!

A year ago today we first layed eyes on one another.

A year ago today you told me you loved me.

A year ago today I realized I wanted to be your wife.

Its a bitter sweet day kinda happy kinda sad I wish you were here celebrating 

with me but I know your feeling happy/sad

as well. Just think when you get home

we can get down to Disneyland for that weekend get away

and celebrate then!

I miss your big blue eyes

I miss your thick country accent when you tell me "let me see your fangers"

(Fangers in country mean fingers!)

or when you see "I love you Jenay" and I tell you " I love you Forest"

Oh boy you sound like Forest Gump!

Writing this post leaves a knot in my stomach knowing I can't lay a big smooch on you.

I hope these next few months go by fast I miss you terribly.

I love you baby forever and ever.

I can't wait to start the next chapters of our life I can't wait to see you in the morning when
I wake up and before I go to bed I can't wait to have date nights
and long talks. I want you to kiss my shoulders again and wipe my hair away from my face
I want you to sing to me I want to slow dance in the middle of the kitchen with no music again.
I miss you I miss all of you I want you hear and I want you now.
Kisses and cuddles sent your way my man.

LOVE YOUR MAMA WILSON

Halfway done!!!!

OH MY GOSH I AM SO EXCITED I A HYSTERICAL WE ARE HALF WAY DONE WITH DEPLOYMENT WE JUST HIT 50% WHEN PUBLISHED MY LAST POST! I AM SO HAPPY I AM SO HAPPY I AM SO HAPPY ITS DOWN HILL FROM HERE BABY WOHOOOOOO!!!!

YIPE!

Talapia watermelon potato

SO I have to say I am so proud of myself I have lost 4 pounds in two weeks!

In the beginning of the two weeks I 

breakfast eggwhites wheat toast watermelon

weighed my self everyday twice a day thinking

I would see a dramatic drop in my weight! Even though I knew

tacos with turkey meat 

it was not possible to see a big difference like that

in only two weeks. So I went t every few days 

and as soon as I got up this morning I ran over to the scale

and jumped on, come to find out I dropped 4 pounds!!!!!

I had the biggest smile on my face and I was feeling

so good about myself. 

snack

I then went to the kitchen and fixed myself 

BREAKFAST! And boy oh boy was it tasty!!!!!!

(I took pictures of what I have been eating over the two weeks

I will post pictures)

100% pure apple juice or almond milk

MHHHMMMMMMMM it was so yummy in my tummy!

I have been thinking of bear and how proud of me he will be

I can't wait to make him some healthy yummy meals

and see what his input is!

I can't wait to see the look on his face when he sees the new me!

THIS IS GOING TO BE AWESOME!

NOW UPDATE ON BEAR

He is still supporting operations in Pakistan

says he is doing good want's to see some action! Told me in an email

he wishes he was on IN BOOTS ON GROUND in COMBAT

instead of being on the MEU....

He said he is making the best of it and is having a fine time, the best part he

said was traveling the world.

BUT he did mention he was ready to come home to his firecracker (me)

and look in to my autumns (my eyes.)

We are 49.9% away from being halfway done! December c'mon  come faster!

talking about December reminds me I will be meeting my future family for the first

time ever!

Ughh I am so excited but so nervous and not to mention I will be

putting my California self in snow

for the first time!

I can't wait to see what Indiana is like I have seen pictures and

from what I have seen its gorgeous!

Well I will leave you with a question how was the first time you

meet you in-laws?

 

Redid my BLOG

CHECK IT OUT AND TELL ME WHAT Y'ALL THINK!!!

MAMA WILSON

MY favorites!

So I have come to love new shows since bear left along with other things I have grown to adapt to! My new obsession is laughing and suspense! These shows consist of... A bowl of pop corn candy and my favorite sweet tea!

*SHOWS*
-Its always sunny in Philadelphia
-House of Payne
-According to Jim
-Everybody loves Raymond
-King of Queens
-Chelsey Lately
-Tosh.O
-Home Improvement
-Will and Grace
-Weeds
-Medium
-Law and order SVU
-NCIS
-True Blood
-HGTV
-Food network
-House Wives of New Jersey
-Desperate House wives
-And many many more I can't think of, and I bet your thinking wow she watches a lot of t.v. but I truly don't that's why I have tivo!


So what are some of your favorites?

Love
Mama Wilson

Married to a Sailor!

Well she is hosting a giveaway! She has reached 200 followers wohoo! I have read her blog for quit some time now (be sure to check her out). She always has something entertaining to talk about a big picker upper you can call her! Now in this giveaway she wanted us to post a comment about giving advice to those who are going to go through a deployment (well keep in mind that I am almost done with mine) So hear it is hope you enjoy it!

ladies!! Leaving loved one's is apart of military life it teaches us women to do things on our own. For instance fix the sink,take care of the house and kids, explain to a million people over again where your husband is without getting tears in your eyes,taking the car in to get fixed with out getting taken advantage of,hanging on the memory of his sweet smile,learn to love him MORE, and it will teach your strengths and weaknesses as days go but you will learn how to deal with them! My fiance deployed about 4 months ago and yes I am sad BUT, I was so ready for it to start I am confident strong and so happy for this deployment so I can get it over with! I bet your thinking I am crazy for saying I am so ready for this deployment to start because after this 7 month deployment I get to marry the love of my life! I play songs that remind me of us, I think of all the good times, I think about his goofy little smile and his cute ass!, I sleep with his Cammi jacket on my pillow even though it smells like sweat I don't care because its his scent that is my man that is the closest thing to my man I have while he is gone! Fill your day with a task and when its time to go to bed put on a comedy your favorite movie or just think of him and what you all will do when he get's back think how wonderful it will be think how amazing it will be to have him home again! There will be moments when you break down but promise you YOU WILL BE OKAY! I am here for you I love you like a sister and I know we don't know each other us Military spouse women have a bond like no ones business! I want you to smile and be happy and spend the last days you have with him cherish them take more pictures than you need and if you have to tell him you love him every other minute! But you have to trust that you will be okay you have to trust your self you have to believe in your self and in your husband! Have faith in everything you and him do!!! If your having a bad day turn the music up loud sing at the top of your lungs and cry if you want to if you have to scream then scream and if you have to break out and just laugh historically then do so! NEVER BE AFRAID OF YOURSELF PEOPLE OR MAKING SOME ONE MAD because if anyone has the right to be mad or upset its us! But I want you too realize your an incredible beautiful unbelievable strong women you will come to find out my love!

 FOREVER PROUD FOREVER FAITHFUL MAMA WILSON!

Bad night bad night

Tonight I was woken up to a phone call of my friend crying frantic she said for me to go on to face book and look at the link she sent me. I stayed on the phone with her to calm her down after awhile she said she needed to go lay with her daughter. After I got off the phone my heart was pounding and I was so nervous to get on and look at what I was going to get knowledge of. I pondered about the link for awhile and finally built up the courage to click on it. When I was reading through it I began to get sweaty and knots in my stomach I feel like I can't breath bear was running through my head constantly. All I can think about is these words that were written in the article. "Taliban threatens to drop bombs on US workers giving aid to Pakistan" (bear is part of the US workers he is supporting operations in Pakistan). I have thrown up several times and clenched my stomach. My heart hurts my breathing is getting heavier tears are out of control. (you may think I am over reacting but once you are put in my shoes you will understand.) I know many say "don't listen to the news don't believe anything until your s/o (significant other) tells you other wise. I try to stand by that but I can't ignore anything that has to do with the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE. Even writing about this gives me chills and again makes me want to throw up. I miss him and I want him home I want him in his safe place I want him where he should be next to me right next to me. This goes to show what a deployment can do to you as you read in my previous post I was happier than ever I felt unstoppable like I was on top of the world. And now I feel horrible. There is nothing I can do to help him I can't comfort him I can't be there to pick his head up look in to his eyes and tell him "it will all be okay" , with this being said there is word going round that possible extension is in the works. Please pray and cross your fingers and toes he and everyone else come home on time. I love you baby so much I miss you and I am by your side threw it all. I wish I could be with you but I am mentally and in your spirit stay strong bear.

love your mama Wilson forever proud forever faithful

Selfesteem for me and you?!

Alright so almost 3 months till bear comes home, and now that I have a trainer and getting my tight luscious body back I decided I should pamper myself and get me a new look for him homecoming!(Pictures are posted as you can see please vote for the one you like and help me decide!!!) I am going for a pinup style but make it modern day look! I am so so so super excited for this. I can't wait to see the look on his face when he sees me for the first time in 7 months! I meet with my trainer tomorrow at 1 pm again! I feel so good and more confident. I wake up feeling great in a better mood I don't snack on all the yummy in my tummy foods anymore I go for healthier choices that boost my energy! OH BOY talking about it gets me feeling like I am on top of the world! I will soon do a before my trainer post an then a before and after post once I am done with shedding this weight!

I can only imagine what will run through his head! Hopefully it will run wild and overly happy! I hope he will be proud of me for doing this! And what will he say when he asks why I kept this a secret he hates surprises but I have a feeling he will let this one slide! My hair is getting long and healthy my goal is to let it grow to my butt. My nails look FABULOUS my teeth are going to get whitened soon, my make up is all new.... Goodness it feels good to do something for yourself every once in a GREAT WHILE!

So I urge you ladies to go out and do something for yourself weather it be getting a new haircut redoing your room or hiring a personal trainer. We as women deserve the best we are the queens in this wold. We have come a long way with rights fashion jobs and many more things in this world. Appreciate yourself take care of yourself DO NOT LOSE YOURSELF. Put on that little black dress get some friends and sip on a glass of wine. Laugh your heart out be daring and put some black eye shadow on instead of the light pink shimmer put some red lipstick on instead of just chap stick let your hair down and whip around let it be wild or how about go and rent your dream car for the day go shopping ad just feel like you are on top of the world for a change make your self feel like you are unstoppable!

I love all of you girls (my blog followers) you all are amazing in your own way believe it and don't let anyone tell you different. You are strong independent deserving women. Do for yourself at times and DON"T LET ANY MAN tell you different or bring you down as a person. Stand up for your self love your self.

forever proud forever faithful

MAMA WILSON xoxox