Bad night bad night

Tonight I was woken up to a phone call of my friend crying frantic she said for me to go on to face book and look at the link she sent me. I stayed on the phone with her to calm her down after awhile she said she needed to go lay with her daughter. After I got off the phone my heart was pounding and I was so nervous to get on and look at what I was going to get knowledge of. I pondered about the link for awhile and finally built up the courage to click on it. When I was reading through it I began to get sweaty and knots in my stomach I feel like I can't breath bear was running through my head constantly. All I can think about is these words that were written in the article. "Taliban threatens to drop bombs on US workers giving aid to Pakistan" (bear is part of the US workers he is supporting operations in Pakistan). I have thrown up several times and clenched my stomach. My heart hurts my breathing is getting heavier tears are out of control. (you may think I am over reacting but once you are put in my shoes you will understand.) I know many say "don't listen to the news don't believe anything until your s/o (significant other) tells you other wise. I try to stand by that but I can't ignore anything that has to do with the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE. Even writing about this gives me chills and again makes me want to throw up. I miss him and I want him home I want him in his safe place I want him where he should be next to me right next to me. This goes to show what a deployment can do to you as you read in my previous post I was happier than ever I felt unstoppable like I was on top of the world. And now I feel horrible. There is nothing I can do to help him I can't comfort him I can't be there to pick his head up look in to his eyes and tell him "it will all be okay" , with this being said there is word going round that possible extension is in the works. Please pray and cross your fingers and toes he and everyone else come home on time. I love you baby so much I miss you and I am by your side threw it all. I wish I could be with you but I am mentally and in your spirit stay strong bear.

love your mama Wilson forever proud forever faithful