Married to a Sailor!

Well she is hosting a giveaway! She has reached 200 followers wohoo! I have read her blog for quit some time now (be sure to check her out). She always has something entertaining to talk about a big picker upper you can call her! Now in this giveaway she wanted us to post a comment about giving advice to those who are going to go through a deployment (well keep in mind that I am almost done with mine) So hear it is hope you enjoy it!

ladies!! Leaving loved one's is apart of military life it teaches us women to do things on our own. For instance fix the sink,take care of the house and kids, explain to a million people over again where your husband is without getting tears in your eyes,taking the car in to get fixed with out getting taken advantage of,hanging on the memory of his sweet smile,learn to love him MORE, and it will teach your strengths and weaknesses as days go but you will learn how to deal with them! My fiance deployed about 4 months ago and yes I am sad BUT, I was so ready for it to start I am confident strong and so happy for this deployment so I can get it over with! I bet your thinking I am crazy for saying I am so ready for this deployment to start because after this 7 month deployment I get to marry the love of my life! I play songs that remind me of us, I think of all the good times, I think about his goofy little smile and his cute ass!, I sleep with his Cammi jacket on my pillow even though it smells like sweat I don't care because its his scent that is my man that is the closest thing to my man I have while he is gone! Fill your day with a task and when its time to go to bed put on a comedy your favorite movie or just think of him and what you all will do when he get's back think how wonderful it will be think how amazing it will be to have him home again! There will be moments when you break down but promise you YOU WILL BE OKAY! I am here for you I love you like a sister and I know we don't know each other us Military spouse women have a bond like no ones business! I want you to smile and be happy and spend the last days you have with him cherish them take more pictures than you need and if you have to tell him you love him every other minute! But you have to trust that you will be okay you have to trust your self you have to believe in your self and in your husband! Have faith in everything you and him do!!! If your having a bad day turn the music up loud sing at the top of your lungs and cry if you want to if you have to scream then scream and if you have to break out and just laugh historically then do so! NEVER BE AFRAID OF YOURSELF PEOPLE OR MAKING SOME ONE MAD because if anyone has the right to be mad or upset its us! But I want you too realize your an incredible beautiful unbelievable strong women you will come to find out my love!

 FOREVER PROUD FOREVER FAITHFUL MAMA WILSON!

Bad night bad night

Tonight I was woken up to a phone call of my friend crying frantic she said for me to go on to face book and look at the link she sent me. I stayed on the phone with her to calm her down after awhile she said she needed to go lay with her daughter. After I got off the phone my heart was pounding and I was so nervous to get on and look at what I was going to get knowledge of. I pondered about the link for awhile and finally built up the courage to click on it. When I was reading through it I began to get sweaty and knots in my stomach I feel like I can't breath bear was running through my head constantly. All I can think about is these words that were written in the article. "Taliban threatens to drop bombs on US workers giving aid to Pakistan" (bear is part of the US workers he is supporting operations in Pakistan). I have thrown up several times and clenched my stomach. My heart hurts my breathing is getting heavier tears are out of control. (you may think I am over reacting but once you are put in my shoes you will understand.) I know many say "don't listen to the news don't believe anything until your s/o (significant other) tells you other wise. I try to stand by that but I can't ignore anything that has to do with the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE. Even writing about this gives me chills and again makes me want to throw up. I miss him and I want him home I want him in his safe place I want him where he should be next to me right next to me. This goes to show what a deployment can do to you as you read in my previous post I was happier than ever I felt unstoppable like I was on top of the world. And now I feel horrible. There is nothing I can do to help him I can't comfort him I can't be there to pick his head up look in to his eyes and tell him "it will all be okay" , with this being said there is word going round that possible extension is in the works. Please pray and cross your fingers and toes he and everyone else come home on time. I love you baby so much I miss you and I am by your side threw it all. I wish I could be with you but I am mentally and in your spirit stay strong bear.

love your mama Wilson forever proud forever faithful

Selfesteem for me and you?!

Alright so almost 3 months till bear comes home, and now that I have a trainer and getting my tight luscious body back I decided I should pamper myself and get me a new look for him homecoming!(Pictures are posted as you can see please vote for the one you like and help me decide!!!) I am going for a pinup style but make it modern day look! I am so so so super excited for this. I can't wait to see the look on his face when he sees me for the first time in 7 months! I meet with my trainer tomorrow at 1 pm again! I feel so good and more confident. I wake up feeling great in a better mood I don't snack on all the yummy in my tummy foods anymore I go for healthier choices that boost my energy! OH BOY talking about it gets me feeling like I am on top of the world! I will soon do a before my trainer post an then a before and after post once I am done with shedding this weight!

I can only imagine what will run through his head! Hopefully it will run wild and overly happy! I hope he will be proud of me for doing this! And what will he say when he asks why I kept this a secret he hates surprises but I have a feeling he will let this one slide! My hair is getting long and healthy my goal is to let it grow to my butt. My nails look FABULOUS my teeth are going to get whitened soon, my make up is all new.... Goodness it feels good to do something for yourself every once in a GREAT WHILE!

So I urge you ladies to go out and do something for yourself weather it be getting a new haircut redoing your room or hiring a personal trainer. We as women deserve the best we are the queens in this wold. We have come a long way with rights fashion jobs and many more things in this world. Appreciate yourself take care of yourself DO NOT LOSE YOURSELF. Put on that little black dress get some friends and sip on a glass of wine. Laugh your heart out be daring and put some black eye shadow on instead of the light pink shimmer put some red lipstick on instead of just chap stick let your hair down and whip around let it be wild or how about go and rent your dream car for the day go shopping ad just feel like you are on top of the world for a change make your self feel like you are unstoppable!

I love all of you girls (my blog followers) you all are amazing in your own way believe it and don't let anyone tell you different. You are strong independent deserving women. Do for yourself at times and DON"T LET ANY MAN tell you different or bring you down as a person. Stand up for your self love your self.

forever proud forever faithful

MAMA WILSON xoxox

I fought for you...

this video is amazing made me tear up thinking about bear!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AgYLr_LfhLo.... Click and watch in some way its powerful!


Next if any of my followers can help me (I am kinda lame at decorating my blog) make a button and a new pamphlet for my blog I guess that's what you call it. Please I would love the help in doing so!
Contact me at... themarinesgirl88@gmail.com, or my face book page I have a badge below!

forever proud forever faithful mama Wilson!

Mind changed about Marines

Well if some of you didn't know I was going to sign up for the Marines the week after I met bear. I had my recruiter we talked did all that fun stuff. Bear and I talked and he said just wait it out and see how you like being married to the Corps first. So far I like it nothing really drastic that has made me hate it. I think about this subject a lot ever since I was a little girl and grew up around Military I have always swoll with pride when it comes to our country and our service men and women. Anyways Bear has 2 years left in the Corps and if he doesn't reup I want to go and become a Marine but if he reups I will stay a Marines wife. Again my mind changed bear is 23 candles on the bday cake he aint gettin any younger he wants babies as do I we may just want to settle in to a house with our dogs and babies and start a new chapter in life! But as I think more and more of how it will be when he gets out I am leaning towards just being with my man and moving in to a house and just being a normal couple. I am going to state this once and for all I Alyssa Garza soon to be Alyssa Wilson will not join the Marines I will stand beside my man and his duty for the rest of the years to come I will stay home and do my duty of being a wife home maker and one day mother! I will go and get my dream job and dream house I Alyssa will never change my mind on this again.
Much love to the Corps a Marines wife....

just a little bit closer

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About 6% left until we are halfway through deployment! It is all down hill from there! We have this in the palm of our hand! Now we got wood floors picked out paint picked out and carpet furniture done all else now we just have to do some repairs then we move in. We are 6 miles from the beach its beautiful! I hired the personal trainer and go in for my first session tomorrow at 1! I am so excited to be getting my sexy back! I need all the motivation I can get and encouragement (not that I have enough already thanks to me I decided me getting my ass back in shape down to that size 4/5 again! its a surprise for bear) I can't wait to see his face when he sees me and my new luscious body! Ohhh I am so ready! And I am more than ready to have him home! I have a few ideas written down for posters and the one bear told me to make so he can find me right away! I stumbled across a song I forgot about and I love it. Its called come a little closer by Dierks Bentley (a little preview) 

Come a little closer baby I feel like strippin' it down
Back to the basics of you and me and what makes the world go round
Every inch of you against my skin
I wanna be stronger than we've ever been
So come a little closer baby
I feel like strippin' it down

Come a little closer baby
Just a little bit closer baby
Come a little closer baby
I feel like layin' you down

me at size 4/5 last year

Okay since I start my new me tomorrow I had my last fat dinner! I had kielbasa with boiled potatoes cheese sour cream wrapped in a tortilla! My mom used to make me this ALL THE TIME its my favorite comfort meal!Time for a little story a few months before bear left he said he had a weigh in one Monday. So he was watching what he ate all week. I turned to him and said "bear why are you watching what you eat your fine you will pass, you are at the weight you should be?" he turned to me and said "mama I don't want to go to PORKCHOP PLATOON!" I sat back and looked at him like he was on crack I said what are you serious and he said yes we have a porkchop platoon in the Corps! I started laughing so hard I almost peed. I can' believe it poor baby was so worried but like I said he passed with flying colors!

things I miss

I am going to let out some things I miss and by seeing this hopefully I can pick some of these things up again that I left behind me....

(clears throat)

1.paint balling

2.my quad

3.4x4

4.being a size 5

5.dancing

6.being flexible

7.my pink yes pink blond and black hair

8.getting my nails done all the time

9. Mac make up fake eyelashes

10.teasing my hair to the sky

11.wearing brands like skin fox fly girls etc...

12.high heels

13. wearing a bikini

14.concerts oh I miss concerts

15.going to party now and then

16.staying up all night

17.being free with out a care in the world

18.hookah

19.drinks

20.most of my bear =( I miss him and love him more than all the words in all the books in all the world! I miss you babe come home soon so I can cross you off my list!!!

3 amazing blogs...

3 amazing blogs I love to read...
GOODNIGHT MOON
SOUTHERN HOSPITALITY
FLIP FLOPS AND COMBAT BOOTS!
All American girls!
My oh my where to start? I first started following GOOD NIGHT MOON when I came across browsing through blogs. And I remember thinking huh Marine wife like soon I am to be. So I criss crossed apple sauce my legs (like I'am doing now) and starting reading! Her events of everyday life made me laugh and made me relax in some ways. The day after bear left for deployment I cried and cried and was just down in the dumps and thinking "god what will make me stop crying?" And I perked up in bed and thought GOODNIGHT MOON! So I grabbed my lap top again criss crossed apple sauce and begun to read. I noticed my tears were gone my eyes didn't burn anymore all because this special lady made me smile and feel so good because of her blog. She is so positive and fun a true beauty inside and out. She truly is amazing at everything she does! Great mom great wife great blogger! I would like to thank you AMBER for making me smile and laugh even though we are states apart just know you helped me in my time of need of warmth! (by the way LOVE LOVE LOVE THE PIN UP PICTURES YOU GO HOT MAMA!)***Make sure to check her out***

Next, SOUTHERN HOSPITALITY! Mrs.Jordan. She is so cute and full of life! Good luck honey with your senior year I am so excited to see what happens! Now this girl has some cute ideas of living well! I have got some recipes from her along with creative ideas (the mason jar drinks so damn cute!)Her smile is amazing her words are touching shes just a great gal all around. Her goals in life are encouraging and they make someone want to get up and go!(MRS.J KICK ASS AT YOUR LAST YEAR OF SCHOOL GIRL HAVE FUN) ***MAKE SURE TO CHECK HER OUT***

And last to FLIP FLOPS AND COMBAT BOOTS! Beautiful girl let me say you look perfect the way you are and I wish you luck with ball dress shopping! Nicole is just simply great with her Thursday 5 Miscellany Monday or with her wordless Wednesday. She does not have a dull day in her life! Always something new and fun happening! She is so colorful and bright. Fun and out going!Just a-go-to-girl when you need some cheering up to do. ***CHECK HER OUT TOO!***
These 3 women are wonderful powerful encouraging inspirational all of the above.I urge you to stop bye and check em' out. They are addicting to read most my laughter comes from them and at times I can relate to them. I have told bear about there blogs and even forwarded him a few of theirs he gets a kick out of them even mentioned its a good laugh when needed! I will call these ladies my *DEPLOYMENT PICKER UPERS!*Each and everyone one of these women are unique and individually developed with that meaning they aren't like women that are out in this crazy world. They don't follow they lead. They have their morals priorities set strait strong independent women. Simply symbols of what a women should be and stand for. *** MAKE SURE TO CHECK THEM OUT***

wtf really?

Well this will be a quick post tonight! Again I know I am horrible at blogging every note I promise I will do this every note some time soon! Anyways, a quick in sight on how things are going and then I will get to the real point of my post. Fist off mom and I closed escrow on the house we wanted! We are now 6 miles from the beach and 20-30 mins away from Camp Pendleton (where bear is based at)depending on traffic and if I want to speed or not! Mom has surgery coming up here in the future we are now about 40.3% done with deployment wohooooo I can finally start seeing the light again! Next umm lets see lets see oh I know I am getting a personal trainer(thank god) This is my last chance at getting my "sexy back" before bear gets home! I just sent out a huge as care package and letters to him for our anni. (September 3rd), Bittersweet as my mil. girls would know!... Okay now to my point! So bear as you know is on a MEU with the Navy, he has been all over so far and he was embracing it and starting to semi enjoy it until dun dun dun the flood river city hit Pakistan! SO bear's ship got lucky enough to cruse down there and support operations! Now, I haven't heard from Bear in almost 2 weeks mind you and I am getting a little antsy so we got word today well actually most of you may have seen it on the news that his COMMANDER got relieved! hmmmmm what the hell dude??? I will post what was reported on here and you can decide what you think on this (please email me your thoughts I am curious to know email me @ themarinesgirl88@gmail.com)
HERE IS HE REPORT

The commanding officer of the San Diego-based amphibious assault ship USS Peleliu (LHA 5), Captain David A. Schnell, was relieved of command by Commander, U.S. Naval Forces Central Command, U.S. Navy 5th Fleet, Vice Adm. Mark I. Fox, due to "loss of confidence" in his ability to command.
The decision to relieve Captain Schnell comes as a result of an investigation into allegations that he acted in an unprofessional manner toward several crew members that was inappropriate, improper and unduly familiar.
The investigation results call into question Schnell's ability to continue to effectively lead his command. As a result, he was relieved due to loss of confidence.
Captain Mark E. Cedrun, Chief of Staff for Expeditionary Strike Group 3, will temporarily command USS Peleliu.
Schnell, who took command of the ship in September 2009, is temporarily reassigned to administrative duties at Commander, Naval Surface Forces, U.S. Pacific Fleet.

oh one more thing

I don't know why my comment thing isn't working and I don't know how to fix it ( if anyone can tell me how to fix it it would be appreciated and how to make a button and get a make over for my blog page would be wonderful!) I am a little slow at all this ! So if you would like to contact me feel free to go to my fb page or my email (themarinesgirl88@gmail.com) I know its long sorry!

4 months and I can smell you

I know I know I know I haven't been on and writing a lot. I am sorry I have been super duper busy my mom and I moved in to her moms until we close escrow on the house we just bought in Laguna Nigel (20 mins away from Camp Pendleton where bear is based at)mom goes in for another two surgery's soon poor thing she is doing so much better all ready she looks good! She happier and wanting to do more things so we went and got mani pedis our eye brows waxed and she bought herself a brand spankin new lap top! She is enjoying herself and everything a lot more I can see! The family and I went on a fam bam vaca sown to Carlsbad in San Diego again ( 2o mins from Camp Pendleton)! Boy boy bet your ass we had a blast! So much fun good food good company we had games swimming our hotel was 5 steps from the beach it was a much needed break! We went down to Camp Pen to go see our street (in previous post I wrote about my step dad he was kia in 91' they named a street after us down there to honor him) we drove bye bears old barracks and we went shopping and I got myself a cute USMC tank top it was so bittersweet being there I felt you near me I felt so safe and so relieved I wanted to run to your barracks open the door and just hug you. I remembered a second after you aren't here your not here your gone to a far far away land with danger and hostility. After a few hours at Pen we went out to eat and headed back,unfortunately this wonderful life we lead for the weak had to end and go back to reality! Bear has been constantly on my mind hes never not there hes in my dreams in my words my movements everything your there your there but your not your not here I feel like you are but physically your not I want you home I want you home now in my arms where I know I can protect you from worlds harm. I want to see your baby blues and your dimples when you grin I want to see the medium reg with a fade hair cut I want your body next to me where it should be. I understand I agreed to this life and this is your job I understand all the ups and down that came with this life I love it because its you I love it because its what makes us you and me I love it because I love you but I am having a hard time rite now. I've been having dreams bad dreams. You laying in a hospital bed motionless me looking at you helpless. Me in the far far away land trying to find you and bring you home. I would tell you more but I don't want to relive these dreams. It 2 am I can't sleep I miss you and want to hold you I found you r cammi jacket along with a white long sleeve dress shirt when I saw them I thought of you. I lifted both of them up and smelt them tears came instantly to my eyes this is the 2nd time I have cried since you been gone. I try to be strong and I try to be up beat and happy but you you my one and only are the only thing that makes me weak weak in the knees weak in the heart. I lay here in bed with chills running through my body and clenching my teeth I long for you tonight I miss you. Next month on the 3rd is our anni! I have to start puttin a box together and send it out in the next few day so hopefully you will receive it by then. I am proud of you man I am proud of everything you have done. I have said before and I will say many times after I am forever proud forever faithful. I love you bear hopefully I will get a call letter or email from you haven't heard from you in quit some time. miss you bear love me you number one fan. xoxo