4 week's till deployment

4 WEEK'S TILL DEPLOYMENT. WHAT AM I TO DO? SIT AND WAIT CRY AND WORRY HURT AND BE IN PAIN... YES I WILL BE I NO I WILL BE. I DON'T WANT TO BE BUT I CANT HELP IT. I LOVE YOU I WANT YOU HERE BUT THIS DEPLOYMENT MEANS WERE JUST THAT MUCH CLOSER TO STARTING OUR LIVES TOGETHER. I WILL BE STRONG BUT STILL SAD I WILL BE TOUGH BUT ANGRY I WILL HURT IN THE INSIDE BUT LOVING ALYSSA ON THE OUTSIDE. I LOVE YOU AND WISH FOR THIS DEPLOYMENT TO GO BYE FAST EASY AND SMOOTH. AS I' AM LOOKING AT THE FURNITURE WE GOT ALONG WITH SOME PICTURES WITH SAYING ON THEM REALLY LIFT MY SPIRITS "GREAT HOPE COMES FROM GREAT FAITH IN GOD" "DANCE, LOVE, SING, LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE" AND LAST "THANK GOD FOR WHAT YOU HAVE AND THANK GOD FOR WHAT YOU NEED". I LAY HERE WITH YOUR DOG TAG'S AROUND MY NECK IN SOME WAY I FEEL YOUR HERE WITH ME AND SAME WHEN I SLEEP WITH YOUR JACKET AND IT HAS YOUR SCENT ON IT IT GIVE'S ME A FEELING YOUR COMMING HOME TO ME!I MISS YOU I LOVE YOU YOUR MY EVERYTHING MY MAN MY MARINE! I WAS READING ONE DAY AND FOUND THIS PRAYER.
DEAR LORD,
GIVE ME GREATNESS OF HEART TO SEE, THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DUTY AND HIS LOVE FOR ME.
GIVE ME THE UNDERSTANDING SO I MAY NO, WHEN DUTY CALLS HE MUST GO.
GIVE ME A TASK TO DO EACH DAY, TO FILL THE TIME WHEN HE IS AWAY.
AND, LORD, WHEN HE MUST FLY SO HIGH, WATCH OVER HIM NIGH.
AND, LORD, WHEN HE GOES OUT TO SEA, BRING HIM SAFELY HIM TO ME.
AND, LORD, WHEN DUTY IS IN THE FIELD, PLEASE PROTECT HIM AND BE HIS SHIELD.
AND, LORD, WHEN HE IS IN FOREIGN LAND, KEEP HIM SAFE IN YOUR LOVING HAND.
AND, LORD, WHEN DEPLOYMENT IS LONG, PLEASE STAY WITH ME AND KEEP ME STRONG!

ANOTHER THING I FOUND WAS THIS PARAGRAPH OF GREAT WORDS,
A MARINE WIFE IS FULL OF GLORY. SHE SEES IN HIM IS FULL LIFE STORY. SHE'S A PATIENT WOMAN OF GREAT UNDERSTANDING. SHE STATES HER OPINIONS AND IS RARELY DEMANDING. IN MOMENTS OF SADNESS OR UNEXPECTED SORROW SHELL LIVEN THE DAY FOR A BETTER TOMORROW. SHE GIVES WARMTH WHEN LIFE IS COLD FOR HE HOLDS THE KEY TO HER HEART OF GOLD. HER ULTIMATE TEST OF BEING A MARINE CORPS WIFE IS BEARING THE ABSTINENCE OF A MAN IN HER LIFE. "MY DUTY COMES FIRST", SHE REMEMBERS HIM SAYING, "I MAY GO ABROAD, BUT FOR YOU ILL BE PRAYING". HER REWARD WILL COME, VERY SOON ONE DAY. WEN HER MARINE COMES HOME FOR A LENGTHY STAY. FOR THIS IS THEIR CASTLE, SHE IS THE QUEEN. A VERY PROUD WIFE OF A WIFE OF A UNITED STATES MARINE!

I LOVE YOU GARY RAY WILSON I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY AND LOVE YOU LIKE HELL AND SWEETHEART ILL WAIT FOR YOU LIKE LOVERS DO!I LOVE MY CORPORAL! I LOVE MY LIFE AND I CANT WAIT TO GET MARRIED SO WE CAN START "OUR LIFE".

last few weeks i have with

these last few weeks have been hell. i havent seen you or barley talked to you in over two weeks. after that you come for a day home pack up and leave for another 3 weeks. then you come home and deployments here. i cant wait for it to be over and it hasnt even started yet. i miss you so much i cant wait for this emptyness to go away i cant wait for these painful tears to go away.i dont care how long your gone as long as you come. and just like you say to me hope for 6 pray for 8! [meaning he can be deployed anywhere from 6 to 8 months unless something happens he will be gone for a whole year]. i cant wait for you to come home so we can get married i love you baby this cant come and end fast enough. its going to hurt like hell and iam ready. but iam not ready to let you go! i never will be! i love you baby more than all the words in all the books in all the world. and like you tell me youll love me till the worlds stop spinning. oh to hear you say that!

frustrated

i' am frustrated your not here
i' am frustrated i want to cry
i' am frustrated i cant talk to you
i' am frustrated i cant see you
i' am frustrated you have to go
i' am frustrated i want to scream
i' am frustrated that i love you but i cant tell you every day
i though going in to this becoming a marine wife would be easy and great loving you
but i was wrong it's hard and not easy i love you so much and it's true thinking about it
the heart grows fonder with distance. i just want to wrap you in my arms and never let you go
i want to have you laying next to me where you should be i want to wake up to you with no wonders
in my mind thinking is he going to get that call is he going to have to leave
i dont want to have to go weeks or months not seeing you or talking to you
i love my life i love our life i cant wait to get it started with you but at the same time
i dont want to sound selfish because what your doing is something greater than alot of people will
never no feel or expirence. your fighting for our country for my freedom i dont no how i will ever thank you enough. your so brave and truthful your a man of your word hunny your one of the few good men
left out there.

forever proud forever faithful
alyssa

i was laying in bed last night wearing your cammie jacket feeling so empty but feeling like you were holding me. i hate when your away from me with no contact or visual contact for weeks at a time. i no were both tired and have stress that will never end it makes it some what easier knowing you no that you have me to lean on count on come to and just having you no i love with you everything i have and like i i say to you i love you more than all the words in all the book in all the world. and like you say to me ill love you till the world stops turning, oh to hear you say that rite now would just blow my mind way. i think of you and smile i think of your laugh and your cute country accent and just get so overwhelmed. or when u tell me let me see those pretty little autumns (meaning my eyes). i miss you singing and then having that really thick country accent come out while singing small town usa! but going back to feeling so empty i hope this deployment will come quick ad easy i hope that everyday goes by the both of us will only grow stronger wiser and closer. there will always be a feeling of emptyness until your home for good with me until i no that u wont get that phone call we try to avoid and seeing you jump up get dressed and go unit i no there might be an extened date on your deployment or no at last minute you wont have to drop and leave for weeks at a time with no contact what so ever. your place should be with me laying next to me laying all day on sunday like you want to or going to take me to that wheat field and just sit in the middle of it and just talk and love echorher. theres a million things i cant wait to do with you.

to my marine

i miss you i hate knowing you have to face the unknown by yourself, i wish i could be there every step of the way with you.i hate to see you come home to swollen tired eyes, i hate seeing the bruises and dry blood on you, i hate how you can never just settle and rest. i wish i could do more for you but i cant i wish i could take your place. i want you to come home and it be your safe place i want you to no my life is you you are my life.
i love you and want the world for you i cant wait to see you walk through that door with you standing tall in your cammie's heavy boots and your cover i cant wait for you to come and give me the greatest hug and a big kiss i cant wait to just smell you scent or here your life o walk into another room and you be there.i get so frustrated sometimes because i wish there were other ways to show that i love you or that i appreichiate you but i don't no how i miss you like crazy and i love you like hell i cant wait till your home bear i' ll be rite here waiting for you like always!

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you
When it's time to go home
May you always have plenty
Your glass never empty
And know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
As every year passes
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Well I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I'm not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone


My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

hello everyone. Today has been a lazy day for me. Yesterday my fiance and i spent the day together it was fun but ended to soon. on this fine morning he left for 3 weeks with no contact at all errrrrr i say to him.... these next few weeks are going to be hellish he deploys in about 6 week for 6 months too a year! I was telling him last night you stay here and i go he would reply to me no beautiful. i would then ask him let me take a walk in your boots so you can relax as he replied no baby. so i said no more as the night ended he went back to base and i layed in bed thinking of wishes as i was thinking these wishes i decided to write them down!
i wish you didnt have to go
i wish you could just stay with me
i wish you could lay with me all day
i wish i could take a waik in your combat boots so you can have a day to yourself
i wish i could take all the pain and heart ake away
i wish i could see your blue eyes every morning
i wish i could see your smile or haer your laugh on a daily bases
i wish for this deployment to go by quick and easy
i wish for you to dream of me while your gone as i will always dream of you
i wish for you to stay strong and keep your head up
i wish for you not to cry but if you do make sure there tears of happiness
i wish for you to think of the memories we made together
i wish for you to think about comming home
i wish for you to close your eyes and see me there with you
i wish for you to get everything you want in life
i wish for you to come home safe no matter how long it takes

iam wrighting this to you with no lies in these words. iam wrighting this to you because iam proud of you. iam wrighting this to you because your an honorable man a brave man a strong willing man. iam proud to call you MY MARINE! iam proud to say ill be here in th end to fight and protect you. and iam here to tell you i love you gary ray wilson ill be here by yourside through thick and thin. i love you bear keep the great work up!