Dear Gary Ray,

Dear Gary Ray,
I missed you today! I wonder what your doing? Well I had to get away today so I packed my stuff and fled off to grandma's. I don't no something about grandma's house make everything better I don't no if it's the scent that fill's her house, her cooking, or knowing she's here for me through bad or good? Well my day consist of laundry { I found your missing pair of green's (cammis) ), cooking, gardening, some work, and cleaning! Fun fun right? NOT! Well i' am still planning the wedding it get's me so excited to no this is actually happening! I was sitting here laughing at myself while planning why you ask, because I can't believe a simple song or the scent on your shirt or the memorance of your smile can make me cry! I love you so much and can't wait to see you bear I can't wait to kiss you and see your big blue eyes! These last few week's have been pretty sleepless night's I no it's because deployment's just a few week's away. BUT we will and we can do this with flying colors! It wont be easy but it will be worth it yes, there will be times were we both just want to give up and just cry scream throw something or just ask what the hell am I doing? It's okay to feel like that every one does but just remember you have me walking every step of the way with you you have me to count on you have me to lean on! Sweetheart i' ll wait for you like lover's do! just think when the 210 days (7months) are done were just days away from our wedding starting a family and just being together! You told me in a text one time I love you my autumn (autumn meaning my eyes remind him of it) i can' wait to come home and see you walk down that isle in that pure whit dress! It may not mean much to my readers but it means a lot to me I hold on to that text and look at it every time he leaves. I have millions of other text's I can post I have saved so many but I don't want to bore all of you! Well I think i' am gonna try to sleep. When I wake up that just means were one day closer to being together!

YOUR FOREVER PROUD FOREVER FAITHFUL BRIDE TO BE ALYSSA!

p.s. I love you baby keep your head up march on and soldier on!