Tonight I was woken up to a phone call of my friend crying frantic she said for me to go on to face book and look at the link she sent me. I stayed on the phone with her to calm her down after awhile she said she needed to go lay with her daughter. After I got off the phone my heart was pounding and I was so nervous to get on and look at what I was going to get knowledge of. I pondered about the link for awhile and finally built up the courage to click on it. When I was reading through it I began to get sweaty and knots in my stomach I feel like I can't breath bear was running through my head constantly. All I can think about is these words that were written in the article. "Taliban threatens to drop bombs on US workers giving aid to Pakistan" (bear is part of the US workers he is supporting operations in Pakistan). I have thrown up several times and clenched my stomach. My heart hurts my breathing is getting heavier tears are out of control. (you may think I am over reacting but once you are put in my shoes you will understand.) I know many say "don't listen to the news don't believe anything until your s/o (significant other) tells you other wise. I try to stand by that but I can't ignore anything that has to do with the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE. Even writing about this gives me chills and again makes me want to throw up. I miss him and I want him home I want him in his safe place I want him where he should be next to me right next to me. This goes to show what a deployment can do to you as you read in my previous post I was happier than ever I felt unstoppable like I was on top of the world. And now I feel horrible. There is nothing I can do to help him I can't comfort him I can't be there to pick his head up look in to his eyes and tell him "it will all be okay" , with this being said there is word going round that possible extension is in the works. Please pray and cross your fingers and toes he and everyone else come home on time. I love you baby so much I miss you and I am by your side threw it all. I wish I could be with you but I am mentally and in your spirit stay strong bear.
love your mama Wilson forever proud forever faithful
Friday, August 27, 2010
Bad night bad night
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Selfesteem for me and you?!
Alright so almost 3 months till bear comes home, and now that I have a trainer and getting my tight luscious body back I decided I should pamper myself and get me a new look for him homecoming!(Pictures are posted as you can see please vote for the one you like and help me decide!!!) I am going for a pinup style but make it modern day look! I am so so so super excited for this. I can't wait to see the look on his face when he sees me for the first time in 7 months! I meet with my trainer tomorrow at 1 pm again! I feel so good and more confident. I wake up feeling great in a better mood I don't snack on all the yummy in my tummy foods anymore I go for healthier choices that boost my energy! OH BOY talking about it gets me feeling like I am on top of the world! I will soon do a before my trainer post an then a before and after post once I am done with shedding this weight!
I can only imagine what will run through his head! Hopefully it will run wild and overly happy! I hope he will be proud of me for doing this! And what will he say when he asks why I kept this a secret he hates surprises but I have a feeling he will let this one slide! My hair is getting long and healthy my goal is to let it grow to my butt. My nails look FABULOUS my teeth are going to get whitened soon, my make up is all new.... Goodness it feels good to do something for yourself every once in a GREAT WHILE!
So I urge you ladies to go out and do something for yourself weather it be getting a new haircut redoing your room or hiring a personal trainer. We as women deserve the best we are the queens in this wold. We have come a long way with rights fashion jobs and many more things in this world. Appreciate yourself take care of yourself DO NOT LOSE YOURSELF. Put on that little black dress get some friends and sip on a glass of wine. Laugh your heart out be daring and put some black eye shadow on instead of the light pink shimmer put some red lipstick on instead of just chap stick let your hair down and whip around let it be wild or how about go and rent your dream car for the day go shopping ad just feel like you are on top of the world for a change make your self feel like you are unstoppable!
I love all of you girls (my blog followers) you all are amazing in your own way believe it and don't let anyone tell you different. You are strong independent deserving women. Do for yourself at times and DON"T LET ANY MAN tell you different or bring you down as a person. Stand up for your self love your self.
forever proud forever faithful
MAMA WILSON xoxox
I fought for you...
this video is amazing made me tear up thinking about bear!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AgYLr_LfhLo.... Click and watch in some way its powerful!
Next if any of my followers can help me (I am kinda lame at decorating my blog) make a button and a new pamphlet for my blog I guess that's what you call it. Please I would love the help in doing so!
Contact me at... themarinesgirl88@gmail.com, or my face book page I have a badge below!
forever proud forever faithful mama Wilson!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Mind changed about Marines
Well if some of you didn't know I was going to sign up for the Marines the week after I met bear. I had my recruiter we talked did all that fun stuff. Bear and I talked and he said just wait it out and see how you like being married to the Corps first. So far I like it nothing really drastic that has made me hate it. I think about this subject a lot ever since I was a little girl and grew up around Military I have always swoll with pride when it comes to our country and our service men and women. Anyways Bear has 2 years left in the Corps and if he doesn't reup I want to go and become a Marine but if he reups I will stay a Marines wife. Again my mind changed bear is 23 candles on the bday cake he aint gettin any younger he wants babies as do I we may just want to settle in to a house with our dogs and babies and start a new chapter in life! But as I think more and more of how it will be when he gets out I am leaning towards just being with my man and moving in to a house and just being a normal couple. I am going to state this once and for all I Alyssa Garza soon to be Alyssa Wilson will not join the Marines I will stand beside my man and his duty for the rest of the years to come I will stay home and do my duty of being a wife home maker and one day mother! I will go and get my dream job and dream house I Alyssa will never change my mind on this again.
Much love to the Corps a Marines wife....
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
just a little bit closer
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Come a little closer baby I feel like strippin' it downBack to the basics of you and me and what makes the world go round
Every inch of you against my skin
I wanna be stronger than we've ever been
So come a little closer baby
I feel like strippin' it down
Come a little closer baby
Just a little bit closer baby
Come a little closer baby
I feel like layin' you down
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| me at size 4/5 last year |
Okay since I start my new me tomorrow I had my last fat dinner! I had kielbasa with boiled potatoes cheese sour cream wrapped in a tortilla! My mom used to make me this ALL THE TIME its my favorite comfort meal!Time for a little story a few months before bear left he said he had a weigh in one Monday. So he was watching what he ate all week. I turned to him and said "bear why are you watching what you eat your fine you will pass, you are at the weight you should be?" he turned to me and said "mama I don't want to go to PORKCHOP PLATOON!" I sat back and looked at him like he was on crack I said what are you serious and he said yes we have a porkchop platoon in the Corps! I started laughing so hard I almost peed. I can' believe it poor baby was so worried but like I said he passed with flying colors! Sunday, August 22, 2010
things I miss
Thursday, August 19, 2010
3 amazing blogs...
3 amazing blogs I love to read...
GOODNIGHT MOON
SOUTHERN HOSPITALITY
FLIP FLOPS AND COMBAT BOOTS!
All American girls!
My oh my where to start? I first started following GOOD NIGHT MOON when I came across browsing through blogs. And I remember thinking huh Marine wife like soon I am to be. So I criss crossed apple sauce my legs (like I'am doing now) and starting reading! Her events of everyday life made me laugh and made me relax in some ways. The day after bear left for deployment I cried and cried and was just down in the dumps and thinking "god what will make me stop crying?" And I perked up in bed and thought GOODNIGHT MOON! So I grabbed my lap top again criss crossed apple sauce and begun to read. I noticed my tears were gone my eyes didn't burn anymore all because this special lady made me smile and feel so good because of her blog. She is so positive and fun a true beauty inside and out. She truly is amazing at everything she does! Great mom great wife great blogger! I would like to thank you AMBER for making me smile and laugh even though we are states apart just know you helped me in my time of need of warmth! (by the way LOVE LOVE LOVE THE PIN UP PICTURES YOU GO HOT MAMA!)***Make sure to check her out***
Next, SOUTHERN HOSPITALITY! Mrs.Jordan. She is so cute and full of life! Good luck honey with your senior year I am so excited to see what happens! Now this girl has some cute ideas of living well! I have got some recipes from her along with creative ideas (the mason jar drinks so damn cute!)Her smile is amazing her words are touching shes just a great gal all around. Her goals in life are encouraging and they make someone want to get up and go!(MRS.J KICK ASS AT YOUR LAST YEAR OF SCHOOL GIRL HAVE FUN) ***MAKE SURE TO CHECK HER OUT***
And last to FLIP FLOPS AND COMBAT BOOTS! Beautiful girl let me say you look perfect the way you are and I wish you luck with ball dress shopping! Nicole is just simply great with her Thursday 5 Miscellany Monday or with her wordless Wednesday. She does not have a dull day in her life! Always something new and fun happening! She is so colorful and bright. Fun and out going!Just a-go-to-girl when you need some cheering up to do. ***CHECK HER OUT TOO!***
These 3 women are wonderful powerful encouraging inspirational all of the above.I urge you to stop bye and check em' out. They are addicting to read most my laughter comes from them and at times I can relate to them. I have told bear about there blogs and even forwarded him a few of theirs he gets a kick out of them even mentioned its a good laugh when needed! I will call these ladies my *DEPLOYMENT PICKER UPERS!*Each and everyone one of these women are unique and individually developed with that meaning they aren't like women that are out in this crazy world. They don't follow they lead. They have their morals priorities set strait strong independent women. Simply symbols of what a women should be and stand for. *** MAKE SURE TO CHECK THEM OUT***
